At The Right Place At The Wrong Time

mood: numb
music: cinta jangan kau pergi - sheila majid ("cinta jangan kau pergi tinggalkan diriku sendiri" / love don't you leave me all by myself" )

sent the last cheque to champion motors earlier today...that's the last of it i hope.

on the way back travelled down jurong town hall road towards boon lay way. stopped at the junction of teban gardens.

then a strange feeling came over me. i looked down at the road and there was a lot of debris. wires.plastic pipes. tiny pieces of glass that glistened in the afternoon sun. then my eyes wandered to the traffic light...then i saw it.

a blue sign. on it were the words "FATAL ACCIDENT. SUNDAY, 29 MAY, 12.59PM".
then it was a cartoon pic of a bike and a crash sign and a vehicle. and the words "eyewitnesses please call 1800-something."

then it dawned on me. it was the junction. where the accident happened. my body immediately went rigid. awak must have noticed for he turned around and looked at me. his eyes followed mine and he saw what i was looking at. he nodded and gave me a reassuring tap on my knee.

i said another prayer for zul. one of many more to come, insya Allah. it's true that death leaves a mark on all of us. its effect is all-consuming and will make anyone tremble deep inside, for they know that it is a real thing, as He has promised that it will come to every being.

and dear toots, we all feel the same about death. but do not be afraid of it, my dear. embrace it and know that it is all part of His plan. this life on earth is but temporal; He has better things in store for us in the next realm, insya Allah.

i take comfort in my words too. coz i understand, all those whom left before me didn't really leave. i envy them, for they have reached their destination. me...i have yet to find my way there.