I Floored The Accelerator, And Liana Almost Flew

mood:sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
music: come undone - duran duran ("who do you need who do you love when you come undone?")

*phew*...

i should be in a comatose state right now. left home at 0500 on saturday and returned on 1230hrs on monday. yes...i did it. i drove to KL. something i said that i will never do. heck yes, i'm proud of myself. doin 140 on kl roads...not bad for a manual 1.3 machine. and i also learnt how to drive like orang KL (read: weave in and out of bumper to bumper traffic).

well...anyway it was a good trip. awak's first (of many) road trips with the anak anak lani. of course he impressed all the datins datins. of course he made pals with the cousins. and of course i got nagged at to learn how to cook the food he likes, how to behave when around him (like i turn into a duzzy monkey!)...hrrmph! but awak thanks...for being my extra pair of eyes on the dark expressways. for entertaining my with your (corny) jokes and weird trivia. for feeding me all those asam, kuacis and gum...love you baby...to more of such family gatherings, yes?

as i observed how awak seemed to integrate just fine into my family, i can't help but worry how i will do with his. so far, my interactions with them are limited to his immediate family...not like mine, where my cousin's wife and my aunt's husband are already including us in other family plans lined up.

don't get me wrong. awak's family is great. great people. and i fell comfortable with them. but i've only met his immediate family...as in his parents, siblings and assorted nieces and nephews. err...that's about it? how awak, will your family love me? well...i suppose i have nothing to worry about. after all...i AM very lovable.

so now it's monday morning. back to work. back to my pews paper. back to reality. and reality will sink in at 5.45pm today...so peeps, please make doa for me. much needed. thanks.

have you ever wanted something so much but when faced with the reality of actually getting it, you ask yourself if you're prepared to get it and face all the good and bad things that come with it? Dear God, give me Your Strength and Wisdom to get through this. i don't know how it came to be like this. i should have know what i was getting myself into. but this is one of the rare times that i really feel like somebody's put the blinkers on me and i'm groping around in the dark. well...not exactly in the dark alone, awak's groping too (in the dark, not me...dun get any silly ideas, peeps).

so how, baby? we will clear this phase? counting down to 5.45pm today, ok?

to zackeroos...very sorry that you're going thru such a tough time. will make doa for you and girl, always here if you need. just remember, He will only test you if He Loves you and even so, He will only test you with something He knows you can overcome...so hang in there, dearies. and we'll meet up soon to plan the trip, kay?

and oh...i missed toots engagement!!!! toots...pics?