Next Stop: ????

mood: wanting
music: life for rent - dido ("nothing i have is truly mine")

i want it. i want it bad.

so much hinges around it. i've been dreaming about it for years...and ever since it came into my life, i got to know it like a fish gets to know water. i need it desperately. i think about it all the time. it consumes me, always. i get upset when other people have it. i want it too! i can do it just as well as they can and i'd like to think that i can do it well.

aaaarrrrgggghhhh....so frustrating! i want it!

well anyway...thanks to giggly who has a wedding in sept...we can forget about CHIANGMAI! darn it! i was sooooo looking forward to it! ok tak per gang...how about sibu 6-8 sept? i know i know...but we can get a real rest for once...and experience the sun(burn), the sand(flies) and the sea(sickness)....all in one go! howwabout it?

awak and i are having a lil' tiff. ok wait...is it a tiff if we can't stay on the phone longer than a minute without quarelling about something? and what is it called if we both choose to make a conscious decision to not talk about something coz deliberating on it any further would cause both to be hurt, angry and upset? *sigh*

awak...i'd rather talk to you about happy stuff then silly stuff. why waste our time on things that we don't know anything about? i told you once and i am telling you again and i will keep telling you. i appreaciate you, baby....no matter what happens (or in this case, doesn't happen).

i suprised my special angel yesterday. but then again, i always do.