Back From Near Death

so He didn't return me to Him after all...

"Oh Allah keep me alive so long as it is beneficial for me..."

i'm really sorry to all who have asked about me this past few weeks. and as i told you i was facing a great test from Him, possibly the greatest test in my life so far. And i pray everyday that this is the last test of this magnitude that He sends my way...i just don't know if i'll ever survive another test this big. on hindsight, i guess He really wanted to see what i was made of, and He really wanted to test my faith in Him.

"Allah is sufficient for me and what an excellent patron He is."

the darkest days of my life. the past seven months, my emotions and well-being have been as unrecognizable as a shipwreck. some days i was strong, up and about, some days i just want to curl up and die. most of the time i was in denial. i jolly well knew why this was happening to me, but my ego and nafs consumed me from inside. instead of praying and supplicating, i would sob and moan. my soul would simply disintegrate and i felt that life has no meaning.

other days were better, i guess. i got up, went to work, went out with friends, met peterpan and gang, got married, bought a house...basically went through the motions, trying to live a semblance of a normal life. like normal people do. it was the single most toughest things that i have ever had to do.

"Oh Allah an easy task is only one which You make easy and whenever You will, difficulties are reduced to easy things..."

how eh? how do i share with you this utmost despair? how can you help me with this intense depression? how can you see my desperate worries?

"Oh Allah I seek Your protection from sever trials, undue feelings of frustrations over Your decrees..."

awak was the only lifeline keeping me alive. one night i woke up crying, and i looked at him sleeping peacefully. through the torrents of tears i asked that He remove me from his life, stop giving him these problems that was me-induced. just married...it should be blissful, chocolates, roses and sunsets right? instead, awak had to put up with an emotionally-not-there wife who doesn't see the point of living anymore. the nights that i would sob till dawn, the tears would be free-flowing, but i'd end up with a migraine the next morning from silencing my cries and stuffing my face with the pillow to prevent myself from crying out loud.

"Oh Allah...make my death a refuge against all troubles..."

it was not easy to pray for death. i am so not ready to meet Him, but stuck between a rock and a hard place, i'd rather be under His banner any day. i felt like, "God, just take me away, take me now so i become less of a burden to anyone."

not only was I feeling generally in the neighborhood of rotten, i made a lot of people feel rotten. i know i worried some of you insane. and i am sorry that i could not share with you anything. because this was my test, you see. i knew He needed me to go through this and if i make it, insya Allah He will love me again.

"Oh Allah...keep me alive so long as it is in my best interest...and grant me death when it is my best interest..."

so i'm better now. all praises be to Him, the Great Lord of the Throne of Honour. He was true to His word, from start till end. there was no going against His decrees. he sent me the trial and He was also the only one who could deliver me from it.

and that He did.

and I am a changed person.

funny how it takes a catastrophe to open my eyes.

He also showed me, through His mercy, that there are those of His creations that He has sent to bring relief and comfort to me. and to you, only He can repay you with the kindness and grace that you have shown me. i pray He relieves you of your worries and showers upon you blessings from the Heavens. there are no thanks that would suffice...the doas that you have uttered from have been answered.

all i ask from you now is please...when we meet, can please don't ask me "what is wrong, wanna talk about what happened, etc"?

i am just barely holding myself together and if you ask, i'm going to fall to pieces all over again. i have a lot of answering to do to Him, so i'll save my answer for The Later Day.

"Oh Allah...so long as You keep me alive, save me from such trying situations as are likely to cause me to go astray..."
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ps: and you...the one who finds these doas familiar? when i read your email and opened your attachment, i cried. right there and then, in the office. the doas were spot on. it was exactly what i have been doa-ing for the past seven months. especially the death parts. i pray that you have never and would never have to makes these doas for yourself. kau lah sohabah dunia akhirat.

It's Not Suicide, Is It?

if i pray to Him very hard that death comes to me today, is that considered suicide?

Get Out

get out!

get out of my head! get out of my mind! get out of my life!!!!

i hate you, remember? we can't stand to face each other. the last time we met, you could barely look at me!!!!!! i get worked up just when somebody mentions your name!!!! go away!

why are you back? do you wanna start another human crisis? haven't you learnt your lesson? that "us" will never happen? that "we" never existed.

i hate you. really. you hurt me. in so many ways. in ways you won't even begin to understand.

go away please...*sob* *sob*...please...go away...i beg you...leave now before i fall again...

Seven Things

mood: hungry ah...
music: ku katakan dengan indah (Live!HRCSingapore) - peterpan (i'm just listening to man's guitar solos all over again and again and again...)


randoms facts about me

1) i can't stand ants
2) i suck at numbers
3) a good book and a bar of kinder bueno under the covers on a rainy day is bliss for me
4) i wanna learn how to cut hair so i can cut awak's hair
5) i harbour thoughts of quitting my dayjob and opening a cafe
6) i have short hair (which awak described as sexy...)
7) i chew my inner lips a lot...

7 things tat scare me

1) running barking dogs
2) flying cockroaches
3) the dark and when my imagination runs wild
4) whenever i do something that's really bad
5) when awak doesn't call when he says he will
6) driving
7) thinking about death and akhirat

7 randoms music at the moment

1) hidupku kan damaikan hatimu - caffeine
2) sandaran hati - letto
3) never forget - take that
4) itu aku - sheila on 7
5) langit ketujuh - sharifah zarina
6) keajaiban (unplugged) - peterpan
7) nostalgia curang rock and roll - the times

7 things i like the most

1) my faith
2) hagen daaz's macadamia nut brittle
3) cadbury's fruit and nuts chocalates
4) people who are punctual
5) the way peterpan makes me feel (upset then happy then upset then happy again..)
6) mamat's muker busok/muker nangis and the other mukas i'm gonna teach him how to make
7) the state of pseudo slumber when i try to go back to sleep 10 mins after the alarms goes off

7 things i say the most

1) "la illaha il allah muhammad rasul allah salallahualaihi wassalam!"
2) "r..i..g..h..t..."
3) "really?"
4) "no shit, sherlock."
5) "oh mak kau meletop!"
6) "i'm sorry, i don't eat seafood."
7) "awaaaaaaaaaak!!!"


7 people to do this

1) erm...i dun have seven people. i want all who's reading this to do it.
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thanks bac2bac...this was fun!

awak's hamster died.

let's give the guy a moment.

Honeymoon

Our Sabah Sarawak Adventure

Day One - 27 May 2006

We started our adventure the night before by departing from Boon Lay Shopping Centre in a super cool and super fast bus ride to KL Pudu Raya. Having learnt my lesson from my previous LCCT brouhaha, we arrived at KLIA LCCT at the disgustingly early time of 5am. hello...our flight's at 9.30am. *grr*....we landed in Kota Kinabalu at 12.30pm, officially missing the jetty to Gayana Island and had to wait some more till 3.30pm when the next ferry departed.

The journey was well worth it. The ferry ride was very scenic. It being a Saturday and all, i was very surprised to see that there was hardly anybody around.





The 20-min ride brought us to Gayana Island Ecoresort. The view from out chalet was simply breathtaking...



Awak and i were dead tired from all that travelling from the night before, so we had an early dinner at the resort's seafood restaurant.



bathed by the approaching rain, we spent dinner reminiscing about our past, his BH 90210 hair days and my naughty years at CCKSS.

Day Two - 28 May 2006

Awak saved a life today! We were on our way to snorkelling just after breakfast when i spied a lil black bird swimming in the water.

Me: "Eh awak! See! That bird swimming!"
Awak: "Swimming ker haper. Dia jatuhlah."
Me: "HA?! Then he drowning? Dear YOU MUST SAVE HIM!"

so my dearest heroic awak, ever the lifesaver, took off his sandals right there along the boardwalk and jumped into the water to rescue Bird Bird


that little speck of black is Bird Bird struggling in the water.


awak to the rescue!


so brave, right? the water's filled with sea urchins y'know...


getting rid of the salt water on Bird Bird


then drying Bird Bird


hey the tissue didn't work...

So only after we made sure Bird Bird was safe and dry, we went to Hornbill Beach. The ferry driver left us all by ourselves at the jetty and said, "I'll be back in 2 hours."

The sun was out and the waters were clear. Awak had bought 3 packs of stale Gardenia bread to feed the fish. As soon as one piece hit the water, it was a free game feeding frenzy! Once, awak even saw a bigger fish eat up a smaller fish who was distracted in trying to get a bite of the bread.

As i held the bread in my fingers, fishes would swim up and take a bite. i guess they could not tell bread from hand; they kept biting me instead. and my toes weren't spared either. i kept swallowing salt water and i'd go "ouch!" "oww!" underwater.


fed fish from my feet

we made our way back to our room to wash up after the boatman fetched us back. it was only about 1.30pm and we thought we had plenty of time for lunch. RIGHT. the moment we finished our prayers, it started raining. and it poured. and it rained. it rained cats and dogs and bears and lions. so in the end we couldn't go out for lunch.

so awak and i stayed in, curled up on the sofa watching the lightning streak across the skies and the rain coming from all directions (yeah, even upwards from the water). cocooned in that uber-comfy state, i dozed off.

my stomach growled me out of sleep. having missed lunch, we were terribly hungry. so imagine the shock at looking at the clock to see that it was nearly midnight! wah lau we slept till so late! and there was no food...save for two packs of Mamee Cup Noodles we sneaked in from the mainland. so we had to make do with that and a packed of haw flakes.

Day 3 - 29 May 2006

I could kill awak. he tickled me out of bed today to make sure we got up before the sun did.


the boardwalk outside our room





We packed up and left Gayana Island Ecoresort feeling good about what lies ahead.


bubbyes Gayana!



We took the ferry back to Kota Kinabalu town and checked in our hotel for the night, the Kinabalu Daya Hotel. We dropped by a cybercafé to download pics into awak's thumbdrive and after lunch, we explored the pasar for gifts. The pasar was hot and stuffy but it sold a billion and ten items from knick-knacks to household items to sun-dried fish.

That night, we walked along Jln Haji Saman for dinner and we came across this huge field of food stalls! there must have been at least 100 different stalls selling local fare...*yum*...there was even this makcik selling sea grapes! awak got a whole BBQed fish for himself and i got my BBQ chicken wings. with steaming fried rice to go with that and hot teh tarik to wash it down with, we returned to our room for dinner.


awak eating sea grapes. (anggur laut, the makcik called it.)

Day 4 - 30 May 2006
After breakfast we headed to the airport to catch our MAS shuttle to Kuching. The plane transited at Bintulu and an hour later, we arrived in Kuching. At the airport, we caught a taxi to Holiday Inn Damai Lagoon Resort. Awak had chosen this place and according to him, it was so secluded that the resort was self-sufficient and had their own in-house activities.

The 50 mins taxi ride was the most bumpiest and rough ride i've ever been on. seeing everyone pass by in their 4WDs and large stable MPV suddenly made a lot of sense on the Kuching-Damai terrain. the only soothing part of the ride was having awak holding the barf bag to my mouth and rubbing my back. oh yes...that and of course the breathtaking views of Putri Santubong and Putri Sejinjang helped with the motion-sickness too.





I LOVE OUR ROOM! we had a chalet that faced the vast beauty of the South China sea to the right and the heights of Mount Santubong to the left.











Awak and i spent the afternoon exploring the grounds and making a stop at the cyber station. It started drizzling after maghrib, so we ordered room service and stayed in for the night.

Day 5 - 31 May 2006

After breakfast awak and i rented bicycles to explore the neighbouring resorts and Damai village.

Remember the uber-rough taxi ride getting into the resort? Well, if a four-wheeled vehicle was akin to a roller coaster ride, imagine how it was like on a flimsy 8-speed piece of metal disguised as a mountain bike. *groan*

The trailed we covered along the foot of Mt Santubong was roughly (and i do mean that literally) 3 kilometres.







Exhausted, we returned to the resort for a quick shower and lunch before heading to the beach.

Awak's bright idea: to rotate 15 mins each at the jacuzzi-steambath-sauna stations routine. TWICE! the jacuzzi was good for soothing my tired body from the rough ride back and the sauna was relaxing for my sweaty body. but for some reason, i could not take the steam bath. the head went straight to my head, u felt woozy and dizzy all at the same time and at one point, awak had to help me out of the pool. i then insisted that we go to the beach like normal people and swam till sunset.


Day 6 - 1 June 2006

After breakfast awak and i took the shuttle to Kuching town and we were dropped off at Holiday Inn Kuching. After depositing our luggage, we set off to explore Kuching town.

We walked along Sungai Kuching and bought a gazillion things along the way. Tired and ready to be declared bankrupts, we headed to the airport, wondering what Kuala Lumpur will bring.

Hotel Malaya's main door opens right smack into Petaling Street! When we arrived that night, we had dinner at the nearby "kedai mamak" as they called it there.
Awak has his mee goreng pedas while i wanted some murtabak. when it came, i was pleasantly surprised!



the crust was tissue-paper thin! it was soooooo yummy and i've never come across murtabak with crust this thin and delicious. but check out the onions...



Day 7 - 2 June 2006

We didn't have much time today, coz awak had Friday prayers, so we headed out after breakfast to see KL early in the morning.





I met awak at the LRT station after zuhr and we headed down to KLCC to catch X-Men.

I've always wanted to eat at Nando's. The peri-peri chicken is reputed to be excellent so we had lunch there. Mistakenly ordered the platter.


the ever-ready fireman preparing for the fire...


as the waitress put it, "wow...boleh kenduri!"


the aftermath...

I only noticed that it was for 3-4 persons after the meal. the hot is HOT man! my eyes and nose watered, and if my ears produced liquid, they would have watered too.

That night we went into Shah Alam to meet mak usu, pak usu, mak lang, mak itam and the kids. Hee hee...lost our way but found a good makan place that served our food within 10 mins! not bad for a seafood restaurant. Awak tucked into the fish with vigour...poor baby...tak best eat seafood alone, so awak has had to abstain from seafood when we eat. i keep telling him, "eat lah whatever ever u want. very easy. chicken for me."

Day 8 - 3 June 2006

Awak and i started packing after breakfast and we checked out, heading towards the Ancasa Hotel where we were going to catch our coach back to Singapore. I saw an A&W across Pudu and immediately determined that we were going to have our last meal in KL at A&W.










And so our Sabah & Sarawak adventure ends. That's it. : )

For the full photographic account, please click on the Multiplying Omnichups link and view the four albums.

Because We Are More Than Just A Fan Club

BECAUSE WE ARE MORE THAN JUST A FANCLUB

The earthquake that struck Jogyakarta has left thousands homeless and in need of basic food, shelter and healhcare supplies.

Because we are more than just a fan club that supports Peterpan and their musical journey, AlamPeterpan seeks your kind generosity in extending relief to those in need.

The best kind of contribution would be in monetary terms, but these items are very much welcomed.

List of Needed Goods:
1. Medication and Health Supplies
2. Tinned Milk/ Baby's Milk Formula
3. Generator Set
4. Clothes
5. Drinking Water
6. Sanitary Napkins
7. Blankets
8. Sleeping Bags

Please contact Nurul at berriesngum@hotmail.com or Khai at omnichups@yahoo.com to coordinate your contributions.

Collection of donations will be done by the AlamPeterpan committee members in Singapore.

Donations will be in the care of Andika Naliputra, peterpan's keyboardist. Peterpan will be transporting the contributions back to Indonesia themselves after their 17th June showcase in Singapore.

And Back Again

HELLO MY BELOVED PEEPS!

i'm back...yes! it feels good and strange in a weird way to be back... : ) pics and updates will be up soon...

but first i wanna thank EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ON OF YOU for dropping by my page and keeping in alive and defending me and oh...*sob*...this is all so touching.... *lol*

be back in a jiffy!

Far Far Away

we'll be right back after we ...

Pasang Paip

everybody thought that somebody will take pictures.

in the end, nobody did.

so if you have pics from saturday, post 'em up, will ya? my photog is still hard at work.

Sloganize Your Name

this is blardy funny

i churned out these names...and see wat i got?

i tried a coupla other names. with hilarious results.

"Chups - It Looks Good On You"

"How Many Licks Does It Take To Get To The Centre Of An Uki?"

"Once You Pop, You Can't Stop Kautsar"

"Nazril With The Less Fattening Centres"

"Let's Face The Music and Boril"

"Your Bagong, Right Away"

"Four Out Of Five Dentists Recommend Andika"

"Loekman Comes To Those Who Wait"

"Strong Enough For A Man, Made For An Indra"

"Reza Tested, Mother Approved"

"You Can't Top An Alampeterpan"

go to http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi now to sloganize your name...then please share with me the yields...*lolrotf*

yeah yeah my washing machine is still on strike.

Alarm Bells A-Ringin'

my washing machine broke down iwanttodie.

The Sisterhood Of The Magnetic Chains

mood: feelin' chainy
music: the hardest thing - 98 degrees. ("and you will never know. cause there can be no happy ending")

thank you, my dearest sohabahs. for being there thru the thick and thin. thru the sun and the rain. thru the smiles and the tears. thru the jokes and the fears.

*getting sappy alert!* i'll share this with the rest of you...i'm sure you have come across this before in forwarded emails.

"A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter.

"Don't forget your girlfriends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass.

"They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you'll have, you are still going to need girlfriends. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. And remember that girlfriends are not you’re your friends, but your sisters, our daughters, and other relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do."

'What a funny piece of advice,' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake, a grown-up, not a young girl who needs girlfriends! Surely my husband and the family we'll start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her Mother.

She kept contact with her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life.

After 50 years of living in this world, here is what she learned:

Times passes. Life happens. Distance separates. Children grow up. Love waxes and wanes. Hearts break. Careers end. Jobs come and go. Parents die. Colleagues forget favors. Men don't call when they say they will.

BUT…girlfriends are there. No matter how much time and how many miles are between you.

A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.

The world wouldn't be the same without them, and neither would I. When we began this adventure called life, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still."

anyway...here are highlights of the The Inagural Meeting Of The Sisterhood Of The Magnetic Chains.


nak posing ker nak main pool?


*burp*


ben & jerry's fossil fuel


chilliz's snipe!


hey...didya know i berak berak that night? *gross!*


chilliz: "ouw...make her stop!"


The Sohabah's Sumpah

for more pics, check out my Multiplying OmniChups link.

and oh yes...chilliz dear, there is a word "snipe" in www.dictionary.com. you get to keep the points. : )

snipe:
a. Any of various lon-billed shore birds of the genus Gallinago or Capella, related to the woodcocks and sandpipers, especially the common widely distributed species G.gallinago or C.gallinago.
b. Any of various similar or related birds.

The Inagural Meeting Of The Sisterhood Of The Magnetic Chains was brought to you by the letter M, the movie The Maid and the word "ouch!"

Can I Hate You

mood: i-hate people mood
music: the one from malcolm in the middle..."YOU'RE NOT THE BOSS OF ME NOW!"

help...i'm surrounded by stupid people.

YOU! the one who talks so damn much but nothing gets done. basket...stop talking and work already. you think dreams put food on the table? you think cracking jokes and pulling funny faces will help meet our deadlines? balls to you. either get your act together or shut up.

and YOU! keep complaining about other people's work. oh for fish's sake SHUT UP ALREADY! somebody stole your ideas? somebody took credit for your work? somebody cut you in the line? well...BOO-FREAKING-HOO! wake up...and smell the bullcrap. this is life. face it.

and don't even get me started on YOU! who the hucking fell do you think you are? who died and made you the BLOG POLICE? read my blog if you want to. judge me if you care...but don't you dare come to your own conclusions and assume that they are mine as well.gawd...the nerve of some people.

you are three of the saddest sorriest and stupidest people i've ever met!




there...you've made me cry. happy?

Ungentlewomanly Behaviour

now c'mon admit it...which one of you bozos did this?

"you are slut. foto with arie! you No.1 whore!"

Free To Decide

mood: clarity is my middle name
music: free to decide - the cranberries ("i'm free to decide and i'm not so suicidal after all")

why is it that some people never learn to be themselves? why some people hide behind others?

i met bubbles (pseudonym, people...pseudonym!) recently. was quite suprised with this side of her that i've never seen before...in all this time of knowing her. and it was really really pleasant to see the real her...beneath all the layers of insecurities.

it was really hard for us to be friends for a while...coz her constant references to her best friend was driving me insane. i mean...the woman could not pick out what to eat or what to wear without consulting someone else! yeah lah i used to do that to sister all the time when she was still around but that was just to piss her off....gosh...i could never understand why she felt that she had to have another person's opinion to do something. darling...that grey mass between your ears...it's working, no?

see peeps...the problem with her is that she is always hiding behind the shadow of someone else...most often it's one of her friends, or boyfriend, or colleague...i dun care lah who! point is she never comes up to the top. she remains hidden under everything else. i'd like to see her step out of that more and let people know her as bubbles...and not somebody's friend, somebody's girlfriend or somebody's colleague.
everyone is beautiful, bubbles. everyone is talented, everyone is unique, everyone is special. if you let people see you like that more often you'll find that there's a lot in you for people to love.

He created you in perfection; you are enough as the person you are, dear.

the next time you have a doubt...whether should you trust someone, or is green your colour or should you have that for lunch or does your butt look big ...ask yourself, just before you ask your friend...ask yourself.

Ada Apa Dengan Peterpan?

mood: post gastronomical exercise languidity
music: superman - five for fighting (didn't remember the lyrics then, sure as hell don't remember them now...*lol*)

ok ok...i've been asked this question one too many times. so i guess now it's time i speak up.

there were only so many times that i was this insane about a band or an artiste. it started with luke perry of beverly hills 90210 (remember the hair? *swoon*). then it was take that for the loooo oooooooooooooongest time (mark owen was beyond cute ok!). more recently was singapore's very own abang opik batisah...but that one i was kindda grey for me...my adoration for him was born out of my disgust at having a certain cher yer nun alip win the SI competition.

so why peterpan? why now?

it started with a group of orphans singing "dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi" to some facilitators who were saying a very difficult goodbye. just imagine that? two people from totally different backgrounds thrown together by fate and by fate, they will part. almost as poignant as "i'll see you when you get there...if you ever get there...will you ever get there..." kindda emotion. a rhetorical question that will kill you to answer.

it started with mungkin nanti. then there was mimpi yang sempurna back when my special angle still loved me ("aku dan semua yang terluka kerana kita"). ayah aceh tercinta ("lihatlah hari berganti namun tiada seindah dulu") made me ache to be the person i was when i was there. di atas normal jumped me from behind ("ku mencari hati yang ku benci") when he came into my life, shook me to my very core and threatened to break every single one of my principles. tak bisakah ("hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu") made me miss peterpan so much when it signalled the end of their merdaka stadium concert. then...no need to say lah hor...kukatakan dengan indah ("kau buat ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi") described the entire alampeterpan experience. being in bandung was all about menunggumu ("bila rindu ini masih milikmu"). and now, even though awak and i are counting down the mere days left, it's still khayalan tingkat tinggi ("yang ku nanti saat memegang tangannya")

it's not like i went looking for the songs to fill the soundtrack of my life. the songs found me.

yang terdalam ("takkan lelah aku menanti takkan hilang cintaku ini") , taman langit ("ini taman langitku. tak perlu kau bayangkan") and tertinggalkan waktu ("kau sadari semua yang berjalan telah tinggalkan mu") were included not for any specific reason other than the fact that it was love at first hearing. the very first time i heard these three songs, i knew i was in love. i didn't care that these tunes were not commercially arranged...i loved them for that. tertinggalkan waktu holds the record for being my all-time favourite peterpan tune.

therefore peeps...it's really very simple. i get peterpan. peterpan gets me. and the ones who ask me, "why peterpan?" don't get it.

lost in translation
"dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi" - "when will we ever meet again"
"aku dan semua yang terluka kerana kita" - "me and all who were hurt by us"
"lihatlah hari berganti namun tiada seindah dulu" - "the days go by but it will never be as beautiful as before"
"hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu" - "my heart worries but still i think of you"
"kau buat ku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi" - "you make me fall and fall all over again"
"bila rindu ini masih milikmu" - "when you are still the one i miss"
"yang ku nanti saat memegang tangannya" - "i wanna hold your hand" (ala the beatles like that)
"takkan lelah aku menanti takkan hilang cintaku ini" - "i won't be weary of waiting. the love that i have won't fade"
"ini taman langitku. tak perlu kau bayangkan" - "this is my sky garden. there's no need for you to imagine"
"kau sadari semua yang berjalan telah tinggalkan mu" - "you realized all that's passed has left you behind"

crap i'm totally butchering peterpan's works....sorry boril! : )

basecamp pics

a lovers' tiff...


...but then we made up...aww~~


chilling to the same groove


chatting and voting at the same time


alampeterpan babes with andika and ariel