Free To Decide

mood: clarity is my middle name
music: free to decide - the cranberries ("i'm free to decide and i'm not so suicidal after all")

why is it that some people never learn to be themselves? why some people hide behind others?

i met bubbles (pseudonym, people...pseudonym!) recently. was quite suprised with this side of her that i've never seen before...in all this time of knowing her. and it was really really pleasant to see the real her...beneath all the layers of insecurities.

it was really hard for us to be friends for a while...coz her constant references to her best friend was driving me insane. i mean...the woman could not pick out what to eat or what to wear without consulting someone else! yeah lah i used to do that to sister all the time when she was still around but that was just to piss her off....gosh...i could never understand why she felt that she had to have another person's opinion to do something. darling...that grey mass between your ears...it's working, no?

see peeps...the problem with her is that she is always hiding behind the shadow of someone else...most often it's one of her friends, or boyfriend, or colleague...i dun care lah who! point is she never comes up to the top. she remains hidden under everything else. i'd like to see her step out of that more and let people know her as bubbles...and not somebody's friend, somebody's girlfriend or somebody's colleague.
everyone is beautiful, bubbles. everyone is talented, everyone is unique, everyone is special. if you let people see you like that more often you'll find that there's a lot in you for people to love.

He created you in perfection; you are enough as the person you are, dear.

the next time you have a doubt...whether should you trust someone, or is green your colour or should you have that for lunch or does your butt look big ...ask yourself, just before you ask your friend...ask yourself.