He Loves Me Yeah Yeah Yeah

mood: i seem to feel pretty happy today...
music: the freshman - the verve ("for the life of me i cannot remember what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise")

yesterday i took awak to meet cik midah, my family's financial health doctor. she's been pasl with my mom for the longest time and she insures our entire family. so naturally i took awak to her for a quick check up. we discussed a lot about his work and the need for him to be totally insured, thanks to the line he's in. and now he's on the way to being insured.

as i listened to awak and cik midah's animated discussion, i found myself blushing...it was very weird. because...awak kept referring to me as one of his dependents! whenever questions came up about what his financial priorities are, it's always his parents first and then me. when asked how much he would like his dependents to get every month in the event of his death, he turned to me and ask, "dear how much do you want?" i laughed the question off.

we then took off. to my annoyance, we ended up at his carpark.

me: what are we doing here, dear? it's past ten already.
awak: yeah i gotta go upstairs take something.
me: take what? you're sending me back what?
awak: aiyah just go up lah.

so we trudged up to his place. and guess what? future mother in law had made kuih keria for me!

omg...i was floored! it was like the home made kind and it was delicious! she packed like a dozen for me to bring back.

i remember complaining to awak a few weeks ago on how there weren't any good kuih keria stalls around. (well that was before coffee bean took me to that shop at shenton way, THANKS!) i didn't think he'd remember or that he or the future mother in law would go through all that trouble! i was speechless and touched. as we were leaving his place, we passed by the hall was his dad was with a guest, a long time family friend. he salam-ed the guy and pointed to me and said, "tunang saya". ("my fiancee").

so last night i went to sleep feeling very nervous coz for the first time in a long time, i realized that this is serious. with the planning our financial health to being with each other's family and stuff. crunching numbers, i counted 268 days (8.25mths, 38 weeks, 6432 hours, 385920 mins, 23155200 secs) to our wedding.

wow. i'm seriously doing this.

and awak...i don't want your money. i want you to be healthy and alive.